It's not the failure, but the cost of success is the thing i can't help but fear

[C arolina Heat-You, Me, and Everyone We Know]

depressing news today. no money from the community foundation. i have been waiting for weeks, hoping and praying that i would get some scholarship money from them again this year. but no such luck. and i just dont get it. how are they gonna turn me down? im freaking awesome lol. all joking aside, this is a depressing turn of events. i got less money than last year from FAFSA so i was really hoping for some relief from the community foundation. now i just dont know how im gonna pay for tuition this year. dad legally has to pay half, and mom had to pay the other half. but mom just cant pay it. as much as she wants to help, she doesnt have the money and as it stands right now, she could lose everything she has ever worked for if GM goes bankrupt. but thats another worry entirely. so i have to pick up her half. i dunno how im gonna pay for it. ill have to start taking out student loans i guess.