Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!

[Everything is Alright-Motion City Soundtrack]

today was like the most ridiculous day at work ever. so there used to be three people that worked P&M and a fourth came in later. then one girl traded shifts. so only me and another guy have to run it until the third girl comes in at 12:30. and its very difficult to run with only two people. well today, asad, the guy who normally runs it with me, called in sick. so i was alone. Su helped me most of the time, but a few times she got called up front to help. and those were the worst times cuz i had to run it all by myself. and it is so difficult cuz you have to make the salads, run register, keep things filled, and wash bowls. and that cant all be done at the same time. and the girl who is supposed to come in at 12:30 couldnt come in til 2:3o today. plus, su was getting on my nerves a little cuz she came back to this area she rarely works and started rearranging stuff and messing up my system. the thing is, i work there all the time so i know how things go. so it was so annoying when she messed with things. i told her to knock it off. after su left, lindsey helped me. and she was much better. she didnt annoy me at all. and the pizza maker guy, john, helped me too cuz he is pretty nice.

oh speaking of pizza makers named john (there are two btw, an older black one and a younger white one. the one mentioned above is the older black one. the one im speaking of now if the younger white one.) anyways, todayhe was standing at the table in the back and i decided to be nice so i walked up and was like "Hey, hows it going??" and he turned around, looked straight at me, and walked me off. i was so mad. why did he do that to me???

anyways, people just got on my nerves today. for one, i hate when people come through line talking on their cell phones. you can stop talking for 10 seconds, long enough to place an order and pay without that stupid thing glued to your ear. it is so rude and annoying. second, i hate when foreign people come through line and get upset with me cuz they cant speak stinkin english. it is not my fault you dont know the difference between "would you like black pepper on that?" and "would you like a drink today?" so dont get snappish with me people. third, two women came in today complaining that the chicken on their salads was too cold. is it just me or isnt it supposed to be cold? it is, trust me. so lindsey heated it up. and then they complained again. she came back and said "this is still very very cold. dont you have a microwave!?!?" well, lemme see. yes we do have a microwave. and yes it is very cold cuz it just came out of the refrigerater. duh. so i microwaved it for a very long time, til it was super hot. just so they couldnt complain that it was too cold anymore. stupid women. and i worked an extra half hour til the next girl came in. seriously, it was ridiculous. we need more help. im starting to hate working on weds. but i love working thurs night :)))) cant wait til tomorrow night :))))

Stacks on deck. Patron on ice. We can pop bottles all night.

[Whatever You Like-T.I.]

so im pretty sure i put the smack down on my chem 115 exam tonight. i feel rather confident. so hopefully i did amazing cuz i really need a good exam grade to boost my confidence at the moment. i should get my grades back in a couple of days. so eep your fingers crossed. after the exam me and some friends went to starbucks. im happy. i feel like i have alotta friends and it makes me feel good. i think college has been good for me. socially at least. not mentally. but anyways, i need to sleep now cuz i have work in the morning. but i was just so excited about my exam going well that i had to tell you all. night.

The disease is growing; it's epidemic. I'm scared there ain't a cure.

[Stupid Girls-Pink]

so i had my engineering 126 exam tonight. i knew it was gonna be bad, but it was pretty darn bad. there were alot of things i just had no idea about. and not only did i miss those things i didnt know, i screwed up easy things cuz of stupid stupid errors. i feel stupid. stupid math errors. gah! so mad. and tomorrow i have a chem exam that i havent studied for yet. but im so tired and im going to bed instead of studying like i should. and i have a feeling i might do bad on the exam cuz of it. gah! whats wrong with me? i feel so stupid. college makes me feel so stupid. and its not that i dont pay attention. and its not that i dont study. cuz i do both. but its just not working :( i just want to do well in my classes. and its not working. and that frustrates me. and makes me feel dumb. stupid stupid stupid.

Downtown lights will be shining on me like a new diamond ring.

[Waiting-Green Day]

so i do believe i was stood up tonight. it was quite tragic really. it was homecoming weekend so there was a parade and a pep rally. and i wasnt gonna go cuz i had nobody to go with. then this guy in my physics class said to me "hey you going to the parade and rally thing tonight?" and im like "nope wasnt planning on it." and he was like "why not?" and i was like "eh, nobody to go with." and he was like "well, you could go with me." and i was like "yeah. i think i could do that :)" and he was like "ok give me your number and ill call you tonight." so i gave him my number and he was like "ok ill call you tonight." and i waited. and waited. and he never called. very depressing really. boys are gay. ugh.

so i decided not to wallow in self pity, so i rounded up the girls left in the building, me and liz and katie. and yanni came over and rebecca did too. and we decided to go out. we went to starbucks and then to chauncey for food. and we got rained on and stuff. but it was fun really. then we came back to my apartment and played apples to apples til 3 am. and we had so much fun. we laughed so hard. it was crazy.

I saw you walking down the hall, and I had alot to tell you but I didn't think you could say it better.

[Amazing-Josh Kelley]

so work tonight was super busy. there were exams tonight so people came to eat before and after the exams. plus we were down a person tonight and that made it all the worse. yet, due to a certain ridiculously attractive coworker of mine, we still got out on time. but because we were so busy i didnt get to see him much. which is sad :( i did see him a little but when i did see him i think i didnt make the most of it. well, first of all, i found what he was doing to be endearingly annoying. i was super super busy, the line was huge, and he kept coming to the front to say stuff to me. he would just hover there beside me while i was waiting on customers until i was like "mhmmm what?" and he would say something and then leave, only to return later. it was annoying cuz i was really busy and he was being uber distracting but it was cute cuz he was so adorable, standing there in his silly dish apron, waiting to talk to me. sometimes i think i said the wrong thing though. like once he came up there to ask me if a knew that knives didnt go in the sink. and im like "yes, clearly, thats common sense." and he still just kinda stands there like "oh well i found these in the sink and i just wondered if you knew that." and the line is getting longer and im like "yes i know," and then i started thinking he was blaming me, cuz he used to do that alot, and so i was like a little snappy, like "yes i know. and i didnt put them in there ok? it wasnt me." and then he was all like "oh oh i know, i wasnt saying it was. i think it was somebody else." and then he left. bad move on my part. being a snappy is not a good way to win him over. and it kinda went on like that for a while. and now im like annoyed with myself cuz i always complain he doesnt talk to me enough and then when he tries i get annoyed. i think it will be ok though. he'll get over it.

on another note, i tried to be nicer to this other guy at work. the other day he came through line when i was working, and i got a little confused and was asking some other person i work with a question. and the guy in line rattled off the answer to my question. and i laughed and said "haha i love it how you come over here and do my job better than i do." and he got really quiet and was like ".....well...i work here...ya know?" and he said it like he honestly believed i had no idea he worked there. and i was just like "i know." i mean, seriously, i work with this guy two days a week. how could i not know he works there? the way he said it just made me very sad though. but then i realized i dont really ever talk to him, or pay him any mind, or anything at all cuz im so wrapped up in trying to impress my devilishly good looking coworker or just generally joking it up with this other guy i work with that i dont really pay much attention to him at all. so i made it my new goal to pay more attention to him. and tonight i think i did that pretty well. i joked with him a bit, about the pizza he burned to a crisp. and he joked with me about a stupid question i asked him. and he is really very nice. so from now on im gonna be nicer and make sure he knows i know he exists.

I hit the highway, making money the fly way, but there's got to be a better way, a better way, better way, yeah.

[Wanna Be a Balla-Lil' Troy]

first off, i dunno what the title has to do with this at all. i just felt random today.

ok so its post number 50. thats pretty cool. and since i recently joined a group on facebook entitled "my best friend and i have conversations that are impossible to understand" im gonna devote this post to, what else, things my friends and i say that outsiders dont understand. im talking inside jokes. i love them. they are delightful. so here are 50 of my favorites, in no particular order. and people who arent the people mentioned next to a particular joke will have no idea what i am saying. and i like it that way.



1. Bitch-skedadle (Me, Jen, and Dani)




2. Mr. Green-Van-da-Man-Man-Vandy-Man.... (Me and Jen)




3. Da-dum. Da-dum. *GLOMP* (Me and Carrie)




4. Giant cheese-gratery deaths (Me and Willis)




5. Fiends (Me and Dani)




6. Mr. Takashima (Me and Justin)




7. Living on the international date line (Me and Meghan)




8. Hi, my name is boobs (Me and Jen)




9. WIINGS! WIIIIINGS! (Me, Jen, and Dani)




10. Nontraditional games of Guess Who (Me and Justin)




11. Christmas lights (Me and Shannon)




12. Clown Punching (Me and Justin)




13. "I swear i saw a squirrel wearing a t-shirt!!" (Me and Meghan)




14. The Bitch and Yes-Man (Me and Kayla)




15. A. B. C. D. E. F.....et cetera (Me and LeAnne)




16. Professional Bear-Ripper-In-Halfer (Me and Jen)




17. That pony ain't nice (Me and Justin)




18. Step-and-a-half (Me and Dani)




19. Red-haired Witch Boy (Me, Justin, and Raver)




20. The moon (Me, Carrie, Justin, and Dani?)




21. Yeeaaaaahhh (Me and K.C.)




22. Manly hunting! and fishing! Manly hunting and fishing! (Me and Jen)




23. Affectionate yet insulting names that are not appropriate to actually write out (Me and Ann)




24. 666ing things at a Christian Bookstore (Me and Jen)




25. Purple-Cow-Moosy-Thing! (Me and Dani)




26. Rifling (Me and Jen)




27. Crocodiles and alligators (Me and Justin)




28. Easy Mac (Me, Jen, and Dani)




29. Evading the police (Me and Jen)




30. Speaking in extended, Dr. Phil-esque metaphors (Me and Justin)




31. Bless you. Don't you bless me. I dont wanna be blessed. Too bad, Im gonna bless you anyways (Me and Willis)




32. Flailing? (Me and Jen)




33. Pickle birthday cards (Me and Meghan)




34. Feen and Pickle Head (Me and Tiffany)




35. Yelling country names as a sign of a particular approaching creeper (The Wall group)




36. CSI (Me and Justin)




37. The Personality Disorder Rangers (Me, Justin, Ann, and Beth)




38. I'm the only gay eskimo (Me and Meghan)




39. Walk-home buddies (Me and Carrie)




40. Tard-parking it up (Me, Jen, and Dani)




41. Cripple carts (Me, Jen, and Dani)




42. I see lots of water (Me and Adam)




43. How do you play darts with a baby??? (Me and Justin)




44. Starbucks nights (Me and Carrie)




45. Green lifesavers (Me and Dani)




46. You are the spoon to my soup (Me and Kyla)




47. Breaking into Ethel look-alikes (Me and Jen)




48. Corn, Kansas, and Nebraska (Me and Justin)




49. Magical midgets riverstomping on our pancakes (Me and Jen)




50. AAAAAAANNNNNNTTTTTOOOOOONNNNNN!!!!!! (Me and Dani)

The broken locks were a warning. You got inside my head.

[Broken-Lifehouse]

so im pretty darn mad. my ipod is broken. it just stopped working. well, it actually plays 2 songs outta 749. but it wont play the other ones. and i reset it like a billion times. but that didnt help. so i need to restore it, but all my itunes stuff is on my home computer. so i have to wait awhile. crap. its too silent in my apartment without it.



if thats not enough, stuff started breaking in my apartment too. the heater in the kitchen doesnt work. and it leaks puddles of water onto the floor. the outlet in the bathroom sparks when stuff is plugged in. oh, and the front window wont shut. so they are gonna have to come fix it. i dont want to seem needy or anything, but i want stuff to work, ya know.

I'll gladly do it because i don't want to fade away

[Bell Bottom Blues-Eric Clapton]

today i did felt super adult-like. the most adult like ever. i voted. i went down to the courthouse and i went into the little booth and i pushed the buttons and pushed the big red button. and i voted. that simple. but i felt very grown-up lol. it was pretty spifftacular. go me.

There are flowers in her hand but she doesnt know why

[Julia-Our Lady Peace]

so my friend tiffany had her baby today. 4 and a half weeks early. tiffany is now a mother. at 17. the baby is gonna be ok. she was on a ventilator cuz she wasnt breathing when she was born. but she is ok now thank goodness. tiffany had to have an emergency C-section cuz the umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. i had originally gone over to her house to give her the baby shower present i bought for her. and her dad was like "uh shes not here right now. shes at the hospital. she had a baby." so her sister and i went to visit her. i walked to the maternity ward of the hospital and stood outside the glass and looked in at the baby. and newborn babies are really nothing more than red, squinty, squalling lumps, but this baby was the most beautiful red, squinty, squalling lump ever. she was so darn cute and tiny. too bad she doesnt have a chance to be raised right. its rather sad really.

The same energy now's a dead battery

[Hot N Cold-Katy Perry]

did some work around the house today. bleh. worked on my project with my group. bleh. i wanted to use my vacation to just chillax. but i really dont get to when i go home. thats one thing i hate about going home. im so used to be on my own, doing what i want when i want, that its quite upsetting when i go home and they tell me what to do. they make me wake up early cuz im "not gonna sleep the day away." and they make me do all the chores cuz im "not gonna come home and do nothing." but the thing is, if i had stayed at college, i wouldnt have to do any of this crap. so whats the point? i do get my laundry done. and homecooked meals. but still, i shouldnt have to come home and work on vacation. its dumb.

That's all they really want, some fun.

[Girls Just Wanna Have Fun-Cyndi Lauper]

i hung out with my friends last night. it was great i have missed everybody sooooo much. me, carrie, dani, jen, justin, and james starbucksed it up. of course i made a scene when i ran in and violently hugged my daniface. after enjoying our tasty, overpriced beveragi (the plural of beverage), we all went to walmart to chill, as do most bored teenagers in this town. we wanted to go to the tard park but word on the street has it that we will get arrested. so we didnt go there. we played hide and go seek in walmart. carrie sucks at sneaking btw. then we went to the parking lot and watched some guys saran wrap someones car. oh the shenanigans that go down at the local walmart. we took some q-mazing pictures, cleaned the hood of ethel with our pants, and i got my face licked. oh, i also got proposed to that night lol. me and james are gonna get married apparently (i kid).



saturday me jen and dani had a non-thursday wing day. it was q-tastic! we ordered 50 wings. yes 50. and we managed to eat 39 of them. and easy mac (the greatest wing day waiter ever) had one. we seriously horked em down. it was crazy. and we looked very fat. but in my defense i hadnt eaten in a long time so there, they were super tasty. i miss weekly wing days a great deal. i refuse to eat wings when not with dani and jen. i just wont do it. its our thing ya know. i love my friends and our wingity good traditions :)

I would give anything, just to live one day in those shoes

[Be Like That-3 Doors Down]

ugh. im sad. work makes me happy and sad. not being able to snag the guy i want, or any guy at all for that matter, makes me sad. knowing that i pick guys way out of my league makes me sad. knowing that he is leaving not that long from now makes me sad. if i work my normal schedule i have about 8 more nights. the terrible terrible joke that genetics played on me makes me sad. the combination of bad hair and bad everything else is ridiculous. ugh. uuuuuuuugh.

Maybe we'll turn it all around, cause its not too late

[Never Too Late-3 Days Grace]

mkay. so the good news is i dont think i failed my exam. i think i did averagely at least. i surpassed my own expectations at least in the respect that i was able to answer some questions correctly. i thought that i would walk in and not be able to answer a single one, start to cry, fail physics, drop out of college, and work in a fast food restaurant for the rest of my life. ok so maybe thats a little overdramatic but you get the point. but i didnt do that bad so its all good. i think it will be ok. i was worried i was too lost in physics to do any good in the class. but being able to answer some of the questions made me realize with a little extra work i might be able to pass the class with an average grade. hopefully i can. we will see.

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

[I'm Yours-Jason Mraz]

sadfgadsiuhgasjhgaskjgkjhgdaskj. i just had the best night at work EVER. oh it was delightful. i worked a great deal on my witty banter and it paid off ;) well, i believe he either knew i was sick or gathered from how bad i looked and therefore was uber nice to me. he kept coming up and checking on me, asking me if i was ok and all. and we joked around a little. and he gave me money (no dani, i did not charge him for my services. that boy would not have to pay fersure.) haha some old cougar tipped him the one time that night he worked register while i took a break and he felt bad cuz he got money when i should have. so he gave me half of it. and i dunno, he acknowledged my existance so it was a positively lovely night. i hope it can be like this from now on. and by this i mean not getting ignored. :D so happy.

You left a stain on one of my good days

[Disease-Matchbox Twenty]

so i did really bad on my chem exam. i was really upset. i studied for days. and i still did bad. it was tragic. and tomorrow i am gonna go fail my engr 126 exam. im tired of failing :( but in better news, the curve came back on our math exam. i thought i got a B but cuz of the class average i got an A. go me.