Why would you speak to me that way? Especially when I always said that I haven't got the words for you.

[Oxford Comma-Vampire Weekend]

so tonight the manager sent everyone home early... except me and creeper bagboy. and it was just me and him. earlier in the night he made the most terrible comment, in front of evan no less. he said "i have been telling my uncle about you. and he thinks we should go out!" and i nearly died inside. and evan laughed at me the rest of his shift.

We are the shaken. We are the monsters underneath your bed.

[Monsters-Matchbox Romance]

today, a grumpy woman came through my line at work. and she kept yelling at me.... and when i looked up at her, i realized she was missing an eyeball.... her empty eye socket was staring back at me. it was sooooo gross. ewwwwwwwww.

Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie, and tell yourself, "you'll be the death of me."

[Remedy-Seether]

work. was. not. fun. today. i had to get up at 8 am this morning after very little sleep, feeling rather tired and throw-uppy, so i could drive home from WL to be at work at 11 am. and it was so busy at work. there were so many church people. and so many old people. ughhhhhh. and i worked with this girl named amber. and she annoyed the piss out of me. she is soooo lazy. so i had to pick up her extra work cuz she just didnt deem it necessary to work today apparently. ugh. not to mention everybody made fun of me about creeper boys interest in me.

I like to dance all night, summons the day. That's how I play.

[Manhattan-Kings of Leon]

i went back to WLafa yesterday to celebrate my friend Jayne's birthday. it was a lot of fun. we went to the park. and to the zoo. and went to work to see people. and to the store. and went into the woods. and had our friends over for smores. its was a really good time.

I think you need a shotgun blast, a kick in the ass, so paranoid, watch your back!

[Sound of Madness-Shinedown]

so i got my first complaint today at work lol. some toothless, illiterate welfare bastard complained cuz he was too dumb to read my "Closed. Next lane please" sign. and i said "sorry sir, im closed." and he pitched a bitch fit and called my manager over and complained. he told my manager i said "im not ringing up your items cuz i have better things to do" right... and my manager was just like "uh huh. sure she said that. bad kayla." and he huffed away and she goes "gee, what an asshole" and laughed and walked off. and it just upset me anyways cuz its not my fault he was dumb. there were just alotta jerks out that day. and i was upset cuz i was having a fairly decent day at work and Mr. I-Cant-Read-So-Im-Gonna-Yell-At-Everyone ruined it. this one guy, Michael, was working. I like Michael. He is really nice and he is good to work with. and we were joking around and stuff.

What could you possibly want from me, can't you see I'm already gone?

[Already Gone-Crossfade]

work was suckish tonight. mostly cuz i was already having a baddish day. and there were people.. and they kept trying to talk to me... and i just wanted to be left alone.

I notice your eyes are always glued to me, keeping them here and it makes no sense at all

[Crushcrushcrush-Paramore]

work really wasnt bad today...except for creeper. but other than that it had fun moments... except when creeper-boy was making crude remarks in my direction. bleh. he hovered over me for pretty much his entire shift, even though i was a jerk to him. i dont like him. and i have never ever given him the slightest reason to be interested. i have never encouraged this behavior. ugh.

so ive been slacking. here is last weeks post secret.

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't want to go home right now <3

[Iris-Goo Goo Dolls]

soooooooooooooo. heres the deal. if youll take a looksee back a few posts ago, i believe i mentioned that he was coming home for a few days. and then i made the statement "maybe ill get to see him but i wont get my hopes up" or something like that. welllllllllllllll. he came home. and he texted me. and asked me to hang out with him! true story. and today, we hung out. and it. was. awesome. actually, to everybody else, this story will be boring because i am about to recount, in excruciating detail, the chill hang-outage that occurred today that was really no big deal, but to me, was a huge deal. so here it goes. we went to Gus's for ice cream. at 4:30. and i got very mad at him because he was late. and he texted me and promised he was on his way and would be there very soon. i was quite peeved because he was like 15 minutes late. but then he told me he kinda bumped into the back of a womans car and had to get that all straightened out so then i was way less mad. so we got our ice cream and it was all raining and stuff outside. and there are only outside benches to sit on there. and he was like "well its not raining that bad. we can sit out here." like he honestly believed i was about to sit out in the rain. ha. i was like "hmm. its raining. so if you like to eat ice cream in the rain, by all means sit out here. i however am gonna sit in my car. you can join me if youd like." so maybe i just wanted to get cozy in the car with him... thats not a crime. anyways, we ended up just sitting in my car, eating our ice cream and talking. we talked about everything, my job, the creeper bag boy at work, his new job offer, his roommates obnoxious girlfriend, life in marion, his lakehouse, and all that business. it was really cool, just sitting there talking to him. i liked hanging out with him. then, sadly, i had to go to work. i said we should hang out again if he wanted to. i was trying to be all cool about it, like "so.. if you wanted to, ya know hang out again or something, just text me. ill be around. whatev" or something like that. and i flailed my arm onto the roof of my car... right into a big puddle on the roof of my car and splashed myself with water. he laughed at me. meanie. so maybe he will text me again. he leaves thurday sometime. who know? but even if he doesnt, today was good enough for me <3

These colors that you're shining are surely not the best

[Colors-Crossfade]

i realized yesterday i have a weird obsession with nail polish. its true. i have an entire shoe box of nail polish, yet i cant resist buying more. i bought two new bottles today. but in my defense, they were on sale. and i dont have those colors.

my ear is being gayyyyyy. i wish it was healeddddddddddd.

I'm a slave to my anger. Evrything holds me down, so I won't try anymore.

[Everything's Wrong-Crossfade]

i had the customers from hell tonight. luckily, i had some help from the stock crew. the customers wouldnt leave, even though the store had been closed for 5 minutes and i kept making announcements for them to leave. finally one of the stock guys announced "the store is closed. YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!" and i laughed. oh, and then i got cussed out by those angry, toothless customers, but again, the two stock guys had my back and made sure they left without getting too outta hand.

I got my industrial bar put in. woot :) cute huh?

Sims 3=best. game. ever. end of story.

<3 <3 <3

guess who is really happy right now.. me!! and guess why... he texted me! he texted me for no other apparent reason than just to talk to me :) and we texted for more than two hours again :) and he will be home soon for a couple days! maybe ill get to see him :) but i wont get my hopes up too much. <3

We're damned at the end. We're damned at the start.

[Hey Now-Augustana]

i hung out with corey again tonight. we made chinese food out of a box lol. it wasnt too bad, but im not a very good cook. bob once again implied perhaps i was being a relationship-ruiner. not true. i have absolutely no intention of that whatsoever. i think corey is a very cool guy to hang out with. but thats it.

i wish people who come through my line at work that i just dont care about what they have to say. i dont want to make conversation with them. i just want them to get their groceries and go. oh, and i want them to shower before they come into my line so i dont have to hold my breath the entire sale so i dont die from their terrible stench.

And I don't know what I'm supposed to do, but if she feels bad then I do too

[Her Diamonds-Rob Thomas]

i need to go visit my besty. i miss her. her life is pretty screwed up right now, and i wish i could be with her to help her out. of course, most of her problems are her own fault.

her other best friend is completely crazy and tried to kill herself. and called meg to say goodbye. meghan had to notify the cops who went over to the girls house to save her. then, get this, the girls mom called meg and yelled at her for calling the cops. meghan has to pick up all this girls hours at work while the girl is .getting her stomach pumped and spending a while in the psych ward.

and megs 30 year-old, crack-head boyfriend relapsed again. he is going away for the next 90 days. to rehab. and now she is alone. her family doesnt want anything to do with her either, because she is dating someone they dont approve of.

i wish i could be there for her.

It's the end of the world as we know it

[It's the End of the World as We Know It-R.E.M.]

today, i saw something i never really believed would happen. GM, the auto industry titan, fell. today, GM filed bankruptcy. and i am scared.

this isnt just some event i am witnessing as an outsider, some headline splashed across the nightly news. this is my life. my mother spent the last thirty years working at GM, like my grandpa before her. my stepdad gave thirty-nine years of his life to GM. and now they sit and watch this all unfold, afraid they will lose everything they have spent their whole lives working for. we have already lost our dental and vision insurance, and the copays on the rest of the insurance have skyrocketed. My dad retired from GM too, so he stands to lose just as much. Of course im worried too. for my family. and for me. how will i be able to stay in college? will we lose everything?

and for anyone who thinks this will only affect people in the auto industry, well, they are idiots. nobody realizes yet how this will affect everyone. everyone. the trickle-down effect will be enormous. i dont think anybody realizes yet just how bad things are about to get.

Clouds are marching along, singing a song, just like they do

[Do You Know What I'm Seeing?-Panic at the Disco]

i saw something cool today. i almost watched a funnel cloud form. i kid you not. a line of storms came through earlier, and when the first one hit, it brought some pretty ridiculous wall clouds with it. the wind started to blow, and it got pretty dark. i was watching out the front window, looking at this one big, particularly nasty looking wall cloud. the cloud started to rotate, and a tiny little piece started to drop towards the ground. other little bits of cloud joined it, all still rotating and moving towards the ground. its hard to explain i guess, except that it was making a funnel right before my eyes. then, as quickly as it had formed, it dissipated and the cloud moved on.