[Runaway-Thriving Ivory]
So im sitting up here on the roof of the parking garage. It’s a nice night. It’s a good temperature. The weather has finally cleared up. And I just wanted to get away for a while. Its my last night here til next semester, and i am incredibly sad.
my roommate left today. i said goodbye to one of my very bestest friends. i almost cried. it feels like everyone around me is gone. and i feel alone.
i still have a lot to pack back at my apartment. i have been packing for hours and im tired of it. packing makes me sad too. im trying to pack away an entire years worth of friends, memories and possessions into boxes, when im really not ready to yet. i just needed a break. thats why im up here. its nice just to sit up here. i can see most of campus. everything is lit up and its really lovely. the stars are out. its nice.
everybody says im being silly. im taking this too hard. quite a few people have said "whats the big deal? youll be back in a few months." and yes, thats true. but everything will be different. mandy is dropping out, and even though she promises to visit, i know once she leaves, we will probably never see her again. lizz is moving off campus. kendra is moving to a different building. katie is getting a new roommate. we are getting a way less cool RA. some of my friends from work are leaving and i dont work with cool people anymore. and of cousre i will miss him.
lizz said "kayla, thats silly. of course its gonna be different. things always change. you cant expect them to stay the same" and i know that, but that doesnt mean i cant wish for things to stay the same, does it?
ok, i feel like its time to go now. four creepers in a car just pulled up. darn them. stupid night-ruiners.
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