So long, this is goodbye. May we meet again in another life. Like strangers, passing by, may we see clearly in a different life.

[So Long Goodbye-10 Years]

i had a sad realization today. bridge and i used to be super close. in fact, i counted her as one of my very best friends. and today i tried to think of the last time we hung out, or went to dinner or shopping, or even to buy groceries. i cant remeber the last time we even just sat down and talked for an extended period of time. not just us, as friends. not anymore. we have had lunch and dinner, and gone to the store, yes. but zack is always there. and i am always the awkward third wheel. so i eventually stopped going. now we dont hang out anymore. we are definately going our separate ways. we rarely go out together on the weekends anymore. i go to my party and she goes with zack to their party. she has started staying over at his place more. and i dont really see her.

i think thats part of the reason i hate zack so much. i feel like he is taking my friend away. and secretly, i feel like she is letting herself be taken away, with absolutely no remorse for leaving her friends behind. i know she likes him and wants to spend time with him. i get it, and i dont want to seem like some jealous bitch. but maybe i am jealous that she just replaced me, the person she said was her very best friend, so quickly with some boy. it hurts. errrca, for example, has brett. and she really likes brett, and she loves to spend time with him. but she manages to see him and still spend time with her friends. and i think thats all im asking for. maybe just every once and awhile, bridge could say that me and her would hang out, without zack around. and that would delight me.

i miss my roomski.