[Life on Life's Terms-Bedlight for Blue Eyes]
So ive been doing stuff lately. i plan to keep doing stuff. part of my new years resolution was to be... better. so i am. i have been working out the last two days. im going tomorrow too. and the next day. and im gonna keep working out. i know ive said stuff like this in the past, but this time it feels serious. ive started losing weight, and while im still not happy with myself it feels... better. and ive been whitening my teeth. and i bought a tanning package. that seems silly, but i feel like if i justs do all these little things to take care of myself, i can just be...better.
i told my friend jayne about doing all this stuff and she said "why are you doing all this?" because i have never been happy about myself. ever. and i guess to a certain extent nobody is ever completely happy with themselves right? but i want to be happier with myself. i know i will never be "beautiful." im to big, too average... too silly-haired. but i think i can take tiny little steps.. like making sure my teeth are white and that my skin is not ghostly pale... to make myself better.
so here is the plan for now: work out AT LEAST twice a week every week. tanning. teeth whitening. and tomorrow im going shopping for new clothes that fit me better and are more girly. and makeup more often.
this semester i will be better.
1 comment:
first off. i would like to say kudos to you, beef. youre awesome. secondly, i disagree with the aformentioned "i will never be beautiful" statement. pish posh i say. pish posh. youre quite beautiful my dear. so you hush about that. :]
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