Bah. I am a sheep.

its like 4 in the am. and i am lying here in bed doing what any normal person who is lying awake in bed at this hour is doing; worrying. i try to be rather blase about things, but secretly i am a worrier at heart.

i am wrried about how things will go down with my dad tomorrow. i am worried he will make a scene. i am worried he will not pay my bill on time. i am worried he will find the small discrepancies in my bills id rather not explain.

i am worried that one day a friend of mine will learn about all the lies a have been telling her.

mostly im worried about my classes right now. which seems mighty silly considering classes dont start back up for another week. but im taking 17 credit hours again... which was way too many last semester. but i rationalize it by saying that those classes were really hard. and i hope hope hope that all these classes arent gonna be so hard. i have to really really focus on 205 this semester. if i dont get a C or better, i have to change majors. i have absolutely no back up plan. i hate my major something awful, but its quite practical and im already so far in it would be a waste of time and money to change. so i have to pass. i have to. i have a professor i have never heard of. at least its not baerch, who i heard was really really terrible. but this new guy could be bad too. i dunno. and its not like if i hate this professor i can drop it and take it later. nope. this is it. uh oh. math is a serious class and i heard its a decent amount of work. im worried cuz in my last math class i had bridge and rebecca to help me. this time i have nobody. i have no idea if my management class will be hard or not. i literally just picked it off a list of classes i have to take. im worried because it could be death. i have no idea. my two spanish classes should not be hard.. hypothetically. and i was perfectly heahappy there with my 14 hours.. then joel called me and asked me to take soc 100 with him. which is supposed to be a positively easy A. and of course i took the class with him. bah. so that puts me at 17 hours. and i am worried. plus if i do not get my gpa up, i lose all my scholarship money and i surely cant afford to continue at purdue. bah. i am worried.

i need to go to bed but my brain is full of thoughts and such.