I can only tell you what it feels like, and right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe.

[Love the Way You Lie-Eminem]

I think i might go away for a while. or maybe forever. i feel like my whole life is crumbling around me, and im not sure how to stop it. and i dont know if its even worth fixing. i think that i could go somewhere else, somewhere far away, and i could be someone completely different. and maybe, just maybe, i could be happy.